Something else that I was thinking about...which some may see as false hope or dillusional:
If my SO wanted to be with this OM and not at all with me, given that theres no financial gain by stringing things out (eg. we're not married and theres not any settlement or anything), I dont think she would be doing anything with me or having any contact other than visitation exchanges for our daughter.
While it's true in our current situation, she may be cake eating enjoying having two men interested in her/in her life...if she really wanted one and not other one would think she would say so. I'm really wondering if, despite her cool demeanor, she's confused on some level and wondering if she did the right thing?
So then maybe on some extremely small level...I am getting another chance with this hanging out, lunches, etc(even though I keep almost blowing it with my pursuits)? (I also realize my pursuits make the OM look better...as he doesnt have to do anything and she will probably come to see him.)
I dunno...I'm sitting here again missing my SO (even though I'm trying to distract myself by watching a movie)...and thinking the above thoughts lift me out of the dumps a little bit.
