Hi glam-Thanks for your thoughts. I have no intentions of chasing my H. My life is busy with kids, work, family and friends. I am very blessed in many ways and I am trying to focus on that. As I am sure you know, it can be so scary when you are at that fork in the road trying to figure out which path to take. I feel like if I start to take the path without my H on it, he pulls me back and I've made no progress.
OP-Good question, will it ever be done? If my H figures himself out in time and wants to come back, will he be happy again? I don't really want him back if he can't be some degree of normal, happy and committed to our M.
I got a few texts from my H today. He asked about the C appointment tonight and said he was stressed out and unable to sleep well because of work. I told him the C was expecting him and I was sorry that thing weren't going well. He asked how I was and I told him I was fine and keeping busy. He told me is going to his XSIL's funeral (out of state) this weekend. He said "I miss you". I told him that I am sure your D will appreciate you being at the funeral. I told him that I miss him too and that I hope he has a safe trip.
All this confuses me.