Omg, this site just became even more useful for it's journaling of historical events. So back on page 11 when I was complaining about how H wasn't responding to any of my texts and I was afraid he was in the hospital or something and finally I got a response that he was "in a cloud all weekend" (Nov 21-23), that was the weekend he went to Vegas!!!! Omg, it makes so much sence now. I had a feeling he was off somewhere that weekend, but now I have proof. My detective skills are coming out. Haha. I don't know, I just really want to call him out on it, but there's no way for me to do it without spilling the beans. I want to be able to have access to future statements if we move forward until I am able to trust him again. Hmm...
Oh, yeah, that's true about S. I bet that could be it. He's been extra hungry too. It's so tough being a baby - all the growing pains and such...
I definitely need to start figuring out exactly what I want and expect from H if we are to reconcile. Awest - you've done a great job on this, so I'll take some of your ideas. I just feel like I don't know what I want exactly right now. Of course I want my marriage to work but I just get tired of trying sometimes and always putting up the face with him to be strong enough for the both of us... Well, I guess I should definitely look into the family of alcoholics meetings. I'll need all the support and suggestions I could get to get thru this...
So I have a coupon to get a massage at a local spa. I think as soon as I'm done with tax season, it's going to be a night of pampering for me! Gives me something to look forward to. =)
Me 27; H 28; S 2 Togeth 9; M 4 Sep 11/14/08 EA OW1 Sep 08 EA OW2 Mar 09 EA OW3 Jun 10
