It seems like I'm never satisfied when it comes to my SO...and that's why up through yesterday I seem to end up pushing/pressuring her.
I mean, my SO was chit chatting with me today like the screw up yesterday didnt happen, and on top of that she wants to go to the gym together tomorrow. Shouldnt that make me happy or content at the very least given what went down yesterday?
I mean...for a few minutes after she left I was happy...then I was confused. Now I'm just missing my SO and wish she was still here to spend time with or I could talk to her.
Have no fear, I'm not gonna bother her...not only because she's at work but because I cant afford to do any more pushing. If only I could have not done any pushing from the start, she might never have moved out...or if she did, by now we might be jmuch closer to being back together. As it is...each time I screw up and push it sets us back to almost like it was the day after she left.
I guess I should just focus on the positives. Aside from getting to spend time with my SO tomorrow which I normally wouldnt get to do, if she ends up joining the gym as a member we could end up working out together regularly...which would be non-pressuring quality time(people rarely get romantic at a public gym).
I guess those are positives. Then again they could be big negatives in disguise. I seem to be a bit naive at seeing the situation for what it really is these days.
