I'm sorry to hear things ended up this way. I've often wondered what happened to you when you left the boards.
You were a great help to me when I first arrived here and that's something I will never forget.
I will mostly echo what everyone else has been telling you here. Go see a doctor man. Depression flat out sucks and it's plain to see from what you have described you have it.
There is no shame in getting a little help. I took AD's for a year and they were a huge help.
Make that your first priority, no they are not a cure all, but they will definitely help.
Originally Posted By: SirPrizeMe
In answer to your other question - no I did not burn any bridges at work; in fact people have offered me interviews and opportunities. It's just that ... not sleeping, you know, not caring... I wouldn't be effective at work. Work can be fun, engaging, stimulating. But there's a reason they call it *Work*, you know: all the little headaches, challenges, it takes a steady conscientious effort. A commitment! and in my head there's a voice: why would I go through all that? for what? There's nothing to salvage. No house at risk (it's gone). No savings to preserve (gone). No way I could climb out of the debt I'm in. So. It's sort of pointless.
You're a very talented and intelligent man. The above is not you. To be honest, It pissses me off reading a couple of things you wrote.
It's time my friend!
No looking too far ahead, just today. One day at a time and start building from there.
Take a step, big or small it doesn't matter. Change something today. Get your a$$ outside, start shaving three days a week, whatever. Just get things a rolling again.
Getting things moving again at first will be the most difficult, but I know without a doubt you can do this.
Keep posting, you have people here that care and want to help.
