My Story...possible "grass is greener" scenario?

[gutwrenching]

The roller coaster will not stop. I hate it, been where you are. The key the vets will tell you is too detach. That is tough. I make small steps to detaching. You can slow down the roller coaster by learning to accept that you cannot control things and going into every day with zero expectations. I have learned if Monday was a good day, then Tues might be good again, might be miserable, or might be just average. I have learned to stop anticipating where the roller coaster might be headed, then you aren't so shell shocked when it turns another direction.
But it won't go away...this is your new reality. Learn how to make it so it won't affect you.