Looking for Advice

[gutwrenching]

Well I followed Sandi's advice and right as we went to bed, hit send on the email. I know she has seen it by now, no response as of yet. If she doesn't bring it up, I will at some point this evening.

For the first time in I don't remember how long, W and I went to bed together at a "normal" time and laid in bed and watched TV for about 15 minutes...that used to be the routine. It almost felt like old times...but of course not as there is no feelings on her side.

This morning, she seemed to be in good spirits. Right as I was leaving she texts me because D8 is texting W about not feeling good. I go back in the house, take care of the situation, W is texting me blow by blow and I was trying hard to let her stay involved in this, was glad to see the concern and I know of the underlying jealousy issues with the kids. In the end, I took over and decided D8 was basically trying to scam us to stay home. After a while at work, I'm in W's building and stop by to fill her in on D and the tactics she was using on us. Odd, wall is up and she doesn't seem overly concerned. Wall was certainly up.

Lost - I didn't view the coming home on-time as a baby step, but maybe you are right. I didn't think of it like that. I don't know though, we are still good friends so I assumed (maybe wrongly) that spending more time at the house with me isn't an issue...but maybe it has been...so maybe it was a baby step.

I am fully anticipating a "no hotel" answer. I'll be shocked by anything else. I'm more interested to see how she brings it up and how she answers no.