feel like giving up - talk to me!

[luvless]

I must say ST - H is getting colder and distant by the week. This trip he has called a couple times but it's quick (I usually end the call) and very matter of fact.

I feel the need to completely disconnect myself from him. I feel this thing is coming to a close...I just do.

I don't even know if I want this anymore. The way he is right now..and could I forgive him for how he's treated me these last 2 months?

I know damn well I'm supposed to fake it but do I wanna make it with him? I dunno anymore.

I guess I'm just venting but I'm getting pissed.

Keep praying for me guys.