I remember those nights and I'm very grateful they are over. They do go away, find peace in that if you can. I look to my cat for comfort too, pets are wonderful for that. Great examples of unconditional love. Our situations are very much alike - same age, excuses, similiar relationship times, no kids. It gets better, you will get stronger and find your voice.
Hang in there!
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