More yelling, more screaming. I can't do this anymore.
H. is making it so unpleasant to be here, I am looking at apts. today.
For 2.5 weeks, I've disengaged H from fighting, being calm, pleasant, upbeat in H presence. Spending time out of the house, w/friends, at the gym, etc.
Saturday, major screaming match between us, and he tells me that he's grown to hate looking at me. H. tells me I am delusional, cold, crazy, unpredictable.
Since Saturday, H has initiated R talk 3 times. H becomes hostile when talking about R/M.
I really thought there was the swing in the right direction. That it was actually possible to work out our differences. Now I am unsure if that is even possible, or even worthwhile.
I believe that he is still having EA. He won't admit anything other than 'friend'. I assume the reason he absolutely refuses to try counseling/work on M is due to r w/ OW. I also assume that may factor in H wanting me out of house.
I feel like I'm very, very slowly going crazy here. This sitch just seems so hopeless. Any help/insight/advice appreciated.
M & H: 40 M: 5.5 T: 7.5 OW: 7/09 Bomb: 9/09 Sep: 3/10 H files 7/10
