I've hit a wall.. Now what?

[talia]

Cutter,
I'm civil - but nothing more. I like the massage idea - that sounds great!!

Update - apparently not responding to his email for the last two days means I deserve to have the email forwarded to my work. I've made it clear to H that he cannot send me any emails at work AND that he needed to CALL to setup this meeting. My response to his email to my work was less than nice. I re-stated my boundaries, told him to stop emailing me here and told him I would CALL him when I figured out a date. He responded with arguing I could have called when I got the email. I shut the argument down, told him I would not be responding to communication I've specifically asked him to to use, told him the convo was over and I would call him when I had a date. I do not understand why its a damn fire drill every time I don't respond to him immediately, on his terms. His suggested dates are a month out - there's no need for an immediate response. Is this typical temper tantrum crap for a WAS? I feel like I'm dealing with a child who throws a fit and screams "I hate you" every time he dosen't get what he wants immediately.

I do think is a little funny that I make him so mad with boundaries. At least he's not walking all over me anymore.

Some days's (ergo today) I'm just overwhelmed with the sheer reality of how long a and hard a process this actually is. Part of me really, really wants to stick it out and make it happen. Another part of me can't imagine going through this for years... (que whiney, nasally tone of voice).... this really, really, really sucks and I just want it to be over...

OK.. I'm off to find my big girl panties....