Hi Nik, I understand your fear. There are so many feelings involved in all this - fear, rejection, sadness, anger... I am up and down too like a roller coaster. But I read Donna's post and it was quite uplifting. Read it if you haven't - it's abot getting past your past there was good info there. Hope it helps you feel better today.
I have seen my counselor a few times... I enjoy the sessions they make me feel better... I think I need a lot more time with him however. I need to work on making my current life happier too. My H is gone - I have to get myself to come to terms with it and I have to let it go and move on. That's what I have to work on this year. I have been wallowing for too long.
I am scared of being alone too... but when I am honest with myself I realize I have to learn to be alone now - and I have to learn to enjoy it - that's the only way I am ever going to be at peace.
