Wow LuLu. It seems like you have a lot of reason for hope and worry. It sounds like the MC is really having some results, esp how you're dealing with it. When H and I were briefly in MC, it felt like we were both trying to tell "our side", like small siblings telling on each other to mom. I didn't embarass myself, but I'm mad at myself for not using the opportunity to really effect change in our R. Now the idea of MC is just a distant hope, so to me your sitch has a lot going for it. And the separation talk...is it because the MC is triggering stuff for your H? The waters get so murky.
I wish you lots of DBing fairy dust...
me: 42 | STBXH: 41 | T: 18 | M: 10 | separation: Jan 3, 2010 | they deserve better: S7 & D4 current thread: http://tinyurl.com/3y8sxcp .: first breathe, then heal, then start LIVING :.