Okay, only have a few minutes to get this in as my W will be returning soon with my S9 from a quick visit over dinner which got all messed up. She ran into a problem leaving work on time, and could not meet for the exchange at 6:00pm so I ended up feeding me and kids out to eat, again frown My W is having problems at work with boss throwing her under the bus in front of the owner, in a way I hope she gets fired, that place is a cess pool, I hated it every since she started working there 2 years ago.

Did not talk to her last night but I am tonight, meeting her for a couple of beers to talk about some things particularly D13 going to child pyscologist starting Saturday, I want her to know what is going on but got to be careful not to lay the blame on my W even though it is 100% her fault. (where's that bus, maybe I'll throw her under it)

Counselor at school for D13 has been heaven sent and the only person my D13 would talk to since this hell started. D13's school C called me today and stated concerns and also that D13 admitted she needs help. I had already done the research and had the name of the Dr., scheduled today. Insurance doesn't cover, out of network but the Dr. is the best so I don't care.

Talking to my W about spliting the cost b/c she doesn't pay anything at all for the kids. Also wanted to let my W know the severity of my D13 condition of deep depression, anger, anxiety, etc. Thank you W of 16 years, I really am going to have to watch myself and not unload on her tonight.

The other part of this is how friendly am I to her, I am going to try and match her mood and tread carefully. My wife has softened considerably in the last 2 weeks since I told her I was done. This is definitely uncharted waters I am heading into tonight.


Formerly "missherlove"

Me49 XW49
M17 T19
S16 D20

Expose yourself to your deepest fear; after that, fear has no power, and the fear of freedom shrinks and vanishes. You are free.

~Jim Morrison