justbreathe, it sounds like you're in a lot of pain. Why don't you come over to my thread where I talk about cognitive distortions? It's not about my sitch, it's a way to help with the thoughts that are so painful for us. I have to work with my thoughts or it's unbearable for me.
I hope you'll stick around. The more I posted on other people's threads, the more input I got on mine.
Take care.
me: 42 | STBXH: 41 | T: 18 | M: 10 | separation: Jan 3, 2010 | they deserve better: S7 & D4 current thread: http://tinyurl.com/3y8sxcp .: first breathe, then heal, then start LIVING :.