The adventure chronicles

[AFWAW]

Quick update. I had dinner with the wife last night at her apartment. I did not tell my daughter about it. She was at home working on schoolwork. We had a pleasant time. The wife of course says still that she wants to come home but it is my decision. I told her that I needed some time to digest everything and that until I did we needed to be exclusive and that any setback would signal to me that she was not serious. She said she understood and gave her word that this would not happpen. We watched a little tv and she made a comment about how I had to take her back as no one else "got" her. Then she started on about giving her bedroom furniture to our daughter. I just listened and looked at her and she must have seen my expression because, she then said, I guess it's too soon to talk about that.

Fast forward to today. We had lunch, leftovers from last night and she starts talking about volunteering for an overseas remote to the desert for a year. That and a couple of other things make me wonder if she's really ready to commit back to us. She made the comment that if I had to think about us this hard then I obviously don't want us. Ok, I didn't say anything. Later after I left, I thought maybe she's right but then again her magnitude of infidelity and cruelty in the past has made me a little gun shy about us so I don't think it's something I shouldn't think about hard.

All in all it was pleasant but it is difficult not to focus on what she told me and the wonder if she's really going to be committed to us and rebuilding this relationship.

I think I'll continue to interact with her to see if I enjoy her company still and if I can truly get past what's she done. I think that's the only way for me to tell.