H is apartment hunting today

[trytryagain]

thankfully i usually check the mail before he does, so i'm not too worried about that. and my usually totally rational father is the one who put it in the mail box for her! WHT???

it doesn't help that my mom sees her dreams of grandchildren slipping away...my older sister is 32 and single, i'll be 30 in april and on the brink of separation. she'd had both of us by the time she was my age. i think that adds to the stress she's feeling of watching me go through this...a dream of hers is dying, too.

i always try to look my best for my H, whether we are fighting or not. his mom used to tease me cause i'd dress up to go to his little sister's soccer games. now i have to come up with a whole new outfit for lunch with him on thursday.

i've told my mom i'm dealing with this the best way i know how and that if nothing else, the whole ordeal has brought me closer to god and my faith than i've ever been in my life. next time i talk to her, if she brings up my M or my H, i'll say i don't want to talk about it and if she persists (which she usually does) i'll end the conversation. i know she is just worried, but her way of getting my H to come to his senses wouldn't work on ANYONE.