I think our marriage is on the mend.

[june72]

Looking through my journals... bad memories was trying to find examples of things he said to me. Really hurtful stuff. I have one entry titled "Happy F$%&ing V-Day". I laugh now b/c I now this year will be a good V-day.

"I don't think he ever tried to see my life's situation- I don't think he ever tried to see how it was for me. I just wan some empathy."

"Work stress killing me, Younger son sick for much of the month- up at night all the time. I feel like I have no support network, no empathy what so ever. Very lonely, worn out. Once again, I have no life at the moment due to lack of sleep, both kids sick and too much work- sucks!"



Accidentally just deleted the mean words he sad to me that I wrote done in my journal and I don't have the energy to retype them.

So I continued MC without hubby. I really begain to think she was not good b/c:
1. Now hubby was the one that was all the problems in her mind (not just me now)
2. She was not pro-marriage and suggested I start dating- I told her I would not jeopardize what was left.
3. She told me of another couple she was helping b/c the wife no longer loved the hubby and she was working out a plan where they would live together and the hubby would date. WHAT!

I mean she did have good advice here and there. Esp. about standing up for my self and calling chit when I saw it. On the whole though- I wish I have found a pro-marriage counselor and not one who did not see to care the outcome.

Anyhow, about four months later she discharged me since I was doing "Better". Stunned me but did not want to continue really anyhow with her. Conveniently, her discharge was timed with when she would have to handle the insurance paperwork, which she stated she hated to d (usually out of pocket clients)
Better? My marriage was going down the tubes. My hubby stated he hated me and was done.


Darn, little one is calling me, more later....