I think the best thing is to find the happy medium. I pretty much tell him what is on my mind now, but I am also careful to word it with respect. I was mean to him for a very long time, sending random texts and telling him what a stupid idiot he was. I guess I figure if he is still talking to me after all that, I can be nice.
When he made the comment last week about me not wanting to see him, I was honest. I told him it was because this was not something I wanted, but that I also knew I needed to let him go, and that it was not in my own best interest to see him. It breaks my heart because I do want to see him, but am not willing to hurt because of it.
But I also know how to set the boundaries. If I send a text or an email, or leave a message, I expect a response. So it may be a little passive aggressive when I say something like "ignoring me again?" but he gets the hint. Be respectful to me as I am to you.
It is about finding your own niche. Keep in mind, I did not speak to SG for six months, only communicating through text messages, and that was rare. Mostly I was really mean.
But when it comes down to it, it is about two things: protecting yourself while being able to look at yourself in the mirror and like what you see. I love SG. But does that mean I will allow him to walk all over me anymore?
Nope.
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
