That is the hardest part. I didn't want this, yet I know that I have to let him go. In the meantime, I hurt from still missing him. And the strange thing is I know he misses me too...just by little comments he makes...like the one about he could finish the divorce, and now I wouldn't have to see him.
But, it is not fair to either one of us for me to continue to cling to him. If it is meant to be, it will, and if not, I hope that God sees fit to make sure I don't spend the rest of my life by myself.
Mishka...I want a kittie to snuggle with lol! It did make me laugh, but D14's b/f is allergic to cats, so she was a foo foo dog. I don't want a dog...too much work.
{sigh}. I am just lonely. I miss his arms around me, I miss being able to lay my head on his shoulder, and the smell of his neck. And no matter what, I can't seem to get past it. I know I will eventually, and it will require me not talking to him anymore. And yet I can't imagine, still, my life without him.
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
