(((((BBJ))))) Bobbi- I watch your story unfold almost religiously. I think it's because you so honestly say things that I feel; thoughts that I think; and because, I too, can't seem to let go of my H.
As soon as he said he wasn't sure he wanted a D, I was right back in limbo.
I LOVED what your counselor told you last week. I think she will help you access that anger. (I wish I could find a good one where I live.)
You're not alone.
Me-43 H-46 M 12 yrs 7/09 T 15 2 grown kids bomb 7/05/07 H moved out 8/04/07 11/22/09 told him I quit;let's get ball rolling Mid Dec- he isn't sure he wants D End 2/2010-Starting to consider piecing