I'm reaching a turning point. The anger and the grief are weighing me down and I want to just turn off, to shut out the love with the pain. I don't want to love my W if I have to live in pain. I want to become cold and empty like her.

~Mark

Me: 38
W: 34
Together: 9yrs
1st M: may '03
1st D: april '08
1st bomb: june '08
remarried: oct '08
2nd bomb: aug '09 --(W asked for D one week into 3 mo. trial separation which was meant to save our M)