Praying for Light at the end of the Tunnel

[kjensen]

I'm trying to live my life without speaking of H to the girls. D12 says I mention him too much so that is one goal I'm striving for...

I opened my own checking account today, set up my paycheck direct deposit..it may not seem like a big deal, but H has been my 'partner' at this credit union since we were married..everything was joint..just felt odd and kind of overdue!

TF-good suggestion about divorce support groups...googled but didn't find anything except a YMCA class...will keep my eyes open.

I try to imagine myself as a single woman, imagining what my life will be like, in order to get accustomed to the idea..its hard to imagine. I always thought of myself as independent and capable on my own...but I think knowing H was always there was reassuring-that there would be someone there for me should I need help..that "net" is gone and that's a bit scary. The hardest part for me daily is my best friend is gone and there's no one to share the little details of my day, or thoughts with..no one to share my walk through life with.

This is a rather lonely journey right now. I imagine its the same for H.