I just finished typing the divorce decree. I feel wretched.

This is the hardest thing, letting the SG go. I still love him, still want him. I feel sad, and yet I also look at it as a new beginning.

I have had so many signs that the old needs to die before the new can begin. I know this may be the death of my M to the SG, but it is also a new beginning. I have the second half of my life to try to get this thing right. I am not sure what the future holds, but somehow I know that God is watching over me, as is K, and the rest of my family that is in Heaven.

Still, I miss SG, and although I know that this D is inevitable, and is not necessarily a bad thing, I almost wish he would change his mind.

And then I wonder, WTH would I do if he did?

Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..