Thanks for the feedback so far, She was raised up around her family drinking and i think she started in her teenage years. As for her behavior it has really been these last few years that i have noticed more drinking. When we started dating we did go to a few parties where we drank but it was ever now and then.
I still think she is going through a MLC but not sure. I did go see a lawyer and I think I'll do the paper work myself. It's cheaper as I do not have alot of money at any given time.
I have done alot of thinking-the divorce still isn't something i want to happen but me in a holding pattern is not good and not fair to me or our kids. I have detached myself to the point that I don't want to see her, hear from her, still hard not to care but she's on her own and may never realize what a good deal she threw away. What happens now she will have to deal with someday and who knows: I am still going to take care of myself, the kids, the grandkids, do all of the things i need to do.
It's like noticing a cold front moving in and watching a storm approach knowing what will happen and being right in the middle. I'm in the storm and have been for quite sometime,
