Hey Britt, I really feel your pain. I have been with my H since I was 14 and dont know any other life. I am also really scared, but I know that I will be okay.
Life is about choices, that is why the Lord gave us freewill. I choose to be okay. I choose to be loved again one day and I choose to be the best mom I can be.
As Rox suggested as a last act of love to my H, I have let my H go. I have allowed him to file for D even though this is something that I really dont want. It will be his loss and he will realise this one day, just as it will be your H.
Just take one day at a time - you will be okay.
Me 37 years young!! S11 S7 T22 M14 D final 13.05.2010 Today is the first day of the rest of my life!!! First post: D Day has arrived