Mixed Signals or is this Limbo Land

[MHL]

I am keeping my w off my mind until she sends me an email saying that she was sorry for being "weepy" on the phone yesterday. UUUUUUGGGGGHHHHH, why do I love this woman that has done the things she has done to me and our family. All I want to do is reach out and hold her and comfort her but I can't, I have to stay the course.

Is this progress?, she is definitely softening. Is she moving into the depression stage of MLC? Will she stop replay? Can't think about it, gotta keep on, keeping on.

She paid for the renewel on our Costco membership, I almost fell out of my chair when the Costco lady came by the office to give me back a check I wrote to renew the membership. I was responding to the weekly email from my wife at the time and I did cut it short and sent it. Then I did pick up the phone and called her to finish what was going to be a long email about, kid exchange, soccer, school and other "neccessary" stuff.

I thanked her for the membership renewel, oh BTW, did I tell you she said in her email that she will pay me back for breakfast that we had together on Saturday. Is this a glimpse of my wife???? We talked about logistics for a little bit and conversation was getting long and she said we could talk tonight, I said wait until after S9 goes to bed.

Going in the journal, I have to reflect on this some more, TAKING ANY INPUT FOR CALL TONIGHT. Will jump back on later.