you're about as close to the endzone as the attendants in the parking lot, seriously bro you're not even in the game.
It's not disappointment I feel, it's sadness, you don't get it, even after all of the explaining and it's not that I get tired of explaining it, I've done that several hundred times on this site. I'm sad because you won't engage the man inside you, you're scared, small, ineffectual and weak and those are the things that are holding you back from your goals and you're 48 but you sound 30 or 40 years younger than that - I'm beginning to think you have issues from your childhood which you've never addressed and are holding you back.
