Ring On or Ring Off????

[ddstartingover]

Started with a "after 30 years, this is what I get?" kind of thing and then progressed to how wrong you are to want to end this......how horrible it is for the kids....there's something wrong with you.....I love you, always will......all those things a good DB'er is not supposed to say.....I said all of these things in the beginning. Learned not to, and for the most part stopped all of that. I did my best to be "dim" not able to go completely dark. I've backslid----but nothing like after this email.

The day after this email exchange he came to get the kids all happy and smiley and talked about the driveway needing work (which of course he's already made clear is MY responsibility now)and I followed with another email about how I didn't understand how he could be this way after ripping my heart out again...yada yada yada and then another one about the ring....

I know it was wrong. I really didn't expect anything I said to make a difference-----I don't EXPECT anything I do or have done to make a difference. I think I've learned that at this point. I know that I can only do things for me. My heart just took over.