Can I save my marriage?

[Lll54]

I think my big problem right now is being alone. I know I've have been there before. But thinking of my life alone is so scary. My stomach hurts when I think of coming home to an empty house. As unhappy as I am right now with my MIA husband. And the 'roomate' that I have, I still have that person to talk to everynight, and that person to sleep with everynight. Scared out of my mind to be alone. Especiallly with two young children. When we originally separated it was sooo hard. I am not the type of person to enjoy being alone. Some people like it, I am the opposite. I need to be around people all the time. I get very lonely, very quickly. It is just as scary that summer is coming, and there is so many fun summer things to do. BBQ's, the beach, camping, etc.I can't imagine not having my H to do those fun family things with anymore.

But then again, he went away this weekend to play hockey. Text me when he got there. Called me the following morning for ten minutes. Text me the following morning. And then text me on the way home. Got home late, climbed into bed. I was sleeping but no kiss hello, no cuddle, nothing. Sorry but when a H and W have been apart for three days, would it not be normal to climb into bed and wrap your arms around your W? We woke up this morning and no hug, no kiss, nothing. I don't think he loves me.

The question is...do I want to live witha man that doesn't love me forever, or be lonely and single. Which is worse?