I have had sadness and despair overcome me today. I have not heard from WAH but all sorts of things are running thru my head (he is happy to get rid of me, he finally can have ow without me in the picture). I know I haven't been in this very long but I already feel beat up and worthless.
I have applied for a ton of jobs with no real prospect at this point. I am worried about money, my future, and starting over from scratch. I feel horrible about myself and know I would feel better with a job and place to go everyday. I have cried every day since he left at some point.
I did make an appointment with my SIL for accupuncture and to get some herbs for stress. She is going to see me tomorrow. I just want my old husband to reappear, I miss his friendship and the fact that he used to care about me.
I know I can't do a thing about what he is doing now but I feel horrible. I will not reach out to him as I don't feel like being rejected by him on a daily basis is in my best interest.
