I've hit a wall.. Now what?

[talia]

Journaling..... and Musing...

I'm doing all the right things then... I guess sometimes you just have to deal with it. The funny thing is, I'm really happy these days. Its amazing. I might try dating... and just see how it goes. Part of me wonders if I'm just afraid, so I guess I'll go find out! I put a profile on a popular dating website - mostly just to see what the response would be - but its been good! I have't pursued anything but now I'm thinking I might. I seem to be doing well with detaching these days - better than I have been. I'm feeling sorry for H this past weekend - it must really suck to feel like you can't be the better man I deserve. I'm not so worried about this upcoming "negotiation" he thinks we are going to have. I might just tell him I don't feel like it and not even meet! I don't owe him anything and I don't care if he needs to ruin his life, he's not going to ruin mine too. I'm a good person and a great catch for someone who deserves me. I don't care anymore if he divorces me - his life is going to be miserable until he deals with his issues. The funny thing I realized this weekend... he feels I deserve a better husband (he's said that several times) ergo he dosen't feel HE can be a better man AND clearly he feels OW is all he deserves. She's a whole lotta ugly/crazy/yucky/sick. What a world to live in where you deserve that. I ponder whether or not OW/OM understand that if the WAS does that to their spouse its a preview of what will happen to them too...


Ok back to reality where everyone is logical.....