I am not sure that your self-esteem was low, but that you believed in your M. That is not something to smirk at. It takes an incredibly strong person to try to fix something that is broken, rather than walk away and get a new one. But sometimes, it is broken beyond repair.
Only you can decide when you stop trying to fix it.
Thanks Lola, I like this viewpoint much better. I think more than the M, I believed in my family and I still saw her as part of it. I no longer feel that way. My family is now me and my kids - yes she is still their mother and an extremely important person in their lives - just not mine anymore. I get that the marriage is over and that a healthier life awaits me.
