Hugs TMW, I wish I could stop you from living my life and going down the same road I have for the last 20 years but I know that I can't. I just pray that you get it sooner than I did, at least you don't have two kids like I do.
btw I do not see it as a good thing that you have not thought of this sight... whatever that means.
Me 54 DS19 and DS17 Married 06/1989 Divorced 01/2011