Hi, I'm here. I haven't even thought about this site, sorry/glad to say.
BF stayed after my last post. Things were ok through the holidays. He got sick the day after Xmas and that's the day I found out he had been calling & texting 1 of his exgirlfriends. She's married. From Christmas to a couple days after New Years - 33 texts & 8 calls. Confrontation to both of them - she was sorry and understanding and everything. Same 'ol from him.
He stayed. (yes, I know how stupid I sound to most of you)
Later that same week he went out with a friend. I woke up the next morning at 6AM with a gut feeling to look at his phone. He wrote to the friend he went out with (before they went out) that I wouldn't be coming with him, that he might have someone better - that it would be a surprise.
I woke him up at 6 AM - he said it was a joke. I started packing his stuff. That night he slept at a friends. The next day he went back to the friend and he called my mom asking what he could do. The next day he came to the house with flowers, candy, an apology card. That week he did dishes and made dinner. This last week things have been pretty alright. Last weekend, the internet history showed that he went to Craigslist for another city and was scanning personal ads. Didn't click on any though.
In the spirit of this rebuilding or whatever I didn't say anything.
Well, this morning I found that he was on the local craigslist looking at personal ads and even clicked on at least 1.
So I've got nothing left. There is no understanding or forgiveness left. I sent him a text saying he'd rather look for someone else on personals than work on the R so he has until end of Feb to move out.
Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn't do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.