weekend started out interestingly, as i went to bed on Friday (she was already asleep) she woke up, went down stairs then came back to bed. next thing i know she has he arms wrapped around me and he head burried in my shoulder and starts to cry. told me she just wants to be happy, told her i can't change her or the past but can only work on myself being a better person. she continued to hold me for some them then we fell asleep.
next morning she wants to go out shopping, and when she leaves she walks to me and hugs me (which is something she would never do in the past) - smile and tell her to have fun.
so sounds like things are heading in the right dirrection, unfortunatley i think i may have slid back as i later in the day (probably more out of habit) leaned over and gave her a hug - got the roll of the eyes and the "leave me alone look".
will try not to "slip" again - in the mean time i am still running and reading, even been more patient with my kids over things that used to anger me.
i do notice that my W seems to get more upset when the kids are all crazy and loud (i can't be there every time to try and take control and quite the situation)- any thoughts on how to help her lower her stress - still refuses to see any kind of doctors or counciling.
M-37 W-36 S-11, S-9, D-4 PA exposed 3/13/10 10/19/10 moving on... most up to date sit
