Another Sad Deployed Soldier/Dad

[Another_Soldier]

"Update" so i am about 48hrs from flying out of here now and the emotions are all running. I am feeling it all scares, anxious, nervous, worried, and even a little happy. I know it must be normal and I can get thru this. I have been working on me and my plan for when i get home. I am just going to be me and act "as if". Last time i spoke with the W she told me she would pick me up from the airport and i shouldn't worry about that. She had made a comment about finding someplace else to stay while i was home so i could be at home with the kids and not have to worry about her. I just don't think she gets it. I really do want her, but i don't want to be with a woman that don't want to be with me. SHe has a lot of crap in her head right now and I'm not trying to be her "fixer" like i used to be. I hope the way i am handling everything right now is working on her.

I think the hardest thing for me is the detachment part because i am afraid that if i detach to much she may think i am completely don with her and react the opposite of what i am working for. I have known her long enough to know how she is and how she reacts to things and the detachment really will start to show more and more how bad it is effectiong her. I love her to death but i am just tired of being depressed and sad because she isn't being the wife that is know and love very much. I know i don't want to start discussing everything as soon as i get off the airplane though i do know that. I don;t know how i am really supposed to act when i see her or when she is there waiting for me at the airport.

OK so some questions for when i arrive at the airport.....

Do i act like nothing is going on and hug her and kiss her and tell her how much i have missed her? Do i say hello and just start moving to the truck and just get in and not show ANY affection at all? What do i do? How do i react to actually being there again? What do i say?

Any guidance would be great i am on a short time crunch here and appreciate all the advice you all have been giving me.

Taking it 1 day at a time....