Whether you're here or not, doesn't concern me. What does is how you mislead people claiming you were the helpless LBS like the rest of us, only to find out that you were the same as the WAS.
You want to make things right. That's good for you. But don't go on and start bleeding when just now you are seeking help after chastising your W for having an A. What a hyprocrite. You should have gotten help before, but that's all in the past.
To me, you made your bed when the rest of us were totally caught unaware of the reasons our WASs left. So you have a sex addiction. Well big fat hairy deal. No one put a gun to your head and told you to have sex with other women. It was still your choice. They think Tiger Woods has an addiction, well you know what? It's not. If you KNOW something is wrong, then you are of the right mind to do something about it BEFORE it happens.
Deal with that and maybe you'll find forgiveness someday. Not forgiveness for yourself (that's easy) but forgiveness from your D after she has to live with the knowledge that her old man broke one of the 10 Commandments, more than once. And destroyed what might have been a great family.
So if you really feel bad, then go ahead and get better. I wish you well and I pray for your D that her future R don't repeat your mistakes, which sad to say, it probably will.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
