Wife calls says I'm incapable of a light conversation, but asks me what I'm doing Sat nite, didn't tell her,she said she chooses to tell me what she's doing,she was rough and mean.Of course she defended her relationship with neighbor,i said don't have anything vs him, but don't like him, she got mad.
I did later text her hey I'm at blah,blah,blah and if you want to shoot the s&*( like last night,come by.
Friends dragged me out started out fun.
Wife's co-worker walks up drunk,wouldn't be quiet gives me the play by play of how wife planned the filing and was giddy as heck the day she filed.
I'll save you the details,needless to say it hurt,the woman followed me around to tell me everything,she was so drunk she wouldn't be quiet.oh well,vivid play by play.
I'm an idiot, i drunk texted wife,not anything angry,which of course wife came over the top with don't like this new me either."I'm looney,can't see that everyone agrees with her,i'm not God,can't judge her."
Of course I couldn't lose so I went back over the top.With facts,but it was just stupid,BAD AYK.
That was first time drunk texted her since July,it'd be too easy to blame it on the alcohol or her friend giving me the play by play.I know I did it to let her know she hurt me and really tired of her friends.
This am when I woke up hung over first thing i did was text wife,"can't tell or text u not keeping score and send some of texts sent u last nite.Not keeping score,our anger,frustrated by emotions.love covers all wrongs.enjoy the day."
I probably shouldn't have sent it,but I was telling the truth in the text sent her last night,but she really doesn't care what she's done.It was a waste of time, added to the justification.
The bummer was I went to a place 10 miles out of town, so I could be a stranger, not talk about me and BAM, wife's drunk desk mate gives the play by play.Desk mate even made fun of me for not seeing it coming.I did stick up for myself,said hey wife never lied before,said she'd call me when she wanted me to come home,so no didn't see it coming.I also told the desk mate,not angry with wife and of course i said listen she's having some kind of crisis,desk mate says you both are, said i agree, i've gone a little nuts.
I pray over and over,how do I let her go, only way she can get better.
I learned I shouldn't drink so much,haven't gotten drunk since day she asked for space, anyway, know that lead to my sunken emotions today.
literally cried all day, about her, the kids, then me, then how bad miss the kids and all back around!!
didn't get hardly anything done today. Wasted it for the most part having a pity party.
