Trying to move on

[ClingingToHope]

Thanks Mishka. Had the girls over to a friend's house. He has four daughters so they played while we watched football. Within 10 minutes, D7 was downstairs with one of them asking "You and mommy are getting divorced, right?"

I told her we shouldn't talk about it today. She said, "we're talking about it upstairs."

Later, my friend and I were talking a little about the situation -- although 99 percent of the time was spent talking about football and work -- and I was filling him in on the fact that W said we were getting divorced so I could find someone more suited for me. She was painting the situation as her doing it for me.

D10 and another of the girls were eavesdropping. I don't think I said anything mean.

My plan is to tell the girls I'll always love their mom, although that may get tricky if I find someone else in the future. But I truly feel that way. My problem is that I'm also going to battle sadness, anger and bitterness.

And this is if this there is no OM. If I'm wrong about that, well I'll have a lot more issues to work through. I'm still feeling this is a MLC/depression issue.

Back to the day. D7 had her issues. Three separate times she wanted to go home. By the end of the day though, she was begging to come back for the Super Bowl.