H is apartment hunting today

[trytryagain]

H wants to have lunch on tuesday. i want so badly to believe that this is a good sign, but in my heart i know he wants to give me separation papers to look over and discuss when he'll be moving his things out of our place and into his new one.

did my best to GAL...last night went out with friends and found myself laughing, did yoga today...went to church. watched the game with friends. all of it feels so empty, though. like i'm living outside my own life. i'm sure that goes away eventually.

i live in an apartment building, and we're just off the elevators. we've agreed i get the dog (i got him certified as a therapy dog and we do a lot of volunteer work together) and every time the elevator dings, the dog's ears perk up, thinking it's his daddy coming home. i won't lie, my ears perk up, too. but no...