I definately don't regret having tried. There have been days that I wish I had ended the M long ago after our first daughter. We've never been able to connect. The time we've spent together since Jan 2 was probably the third or fourth time we've been able to connect well in 11 years.
As I age, I can't help but think that I have a chance to find a W that understands me and, more importantly but selfishly, that I can understand.
My MC said that she had been in a relationship where she even spell checked her b'friend's love letter. For me, the fighting is the biggest issue and related to low self-esteem. But after that, it is just a sense of 'something missing' that I can't shake.
Anyhow - thanks for asking Gnosis. 7 days ago I would've been saying that I just might have found a spark that I can hold on to. Now...I don't think the fighting and the mismatched goals can keep me respectful and loving. If marriage was just about sex, I would have something concrete to work on. Building a connection...that's hard.
How do I connect with someone that understands everything in ways I can't often agree with, ignore, respect, or add to? If she could do that for me, I think I would be OK, but her faked interest isn't very encouraging and her misunderstandings are much more powerful over me.
