Kevin I'm also on xanax. They told me it would only be for a little while also. They help me somewhat but I just pray that this antidepressant helps this time because 25 is so right. I need to get strong for my kids!
Thanks 25 I guess I do need to go more to counseling. I go every 2 weeks but it is not enough. I don't cry in front of kids, usually put an act on but they probably see right through me.
That's where I get confused. I'm on a site rejoicemarriageministries everyday praying for the evil to leave H because they say you need to pray for reconcilation and for the Holy Spirit to change his hardened heart. And then I think like you said, man has free will. Did you stand for your M when you were going through your sitch? I'm confused on standing and detaching.
I guess I thought H's anger depression would get better and he would return when he came out of his fog. Or he would start taking his meds again that he was on for years because of his problem. See he stopped taking his meds 3 weeks before he left and I didn't know it. The week before he left he started snapping at me and the kids and I knew something was wrong with him but I never thought he stopped taking his meds. Then one morning he just flipped out and left. He also told me when he filed for D that he didn't want it. Thats why I thought he would be back. But in a conversation a couple of months ago he said he never said that. It's like he is a totally different person. I don't want him coming back out of guilt, I want him to come back only if he still loves me and the kids.
He was the most loving, caring, H and F and just totally changed within 3 weeks time. 1 week before he left he was making plans for us when we retire later on in life. Now it's like he hates me. My c told me he is going through a really bad depression or maybe a MLC.
Thanks again for the advice, and I'm trying to get strong for myself so I can be the mom I need and want to be.
