This morning when my SO came over she said she wanted to talk to me. As per Gardeners suggestion, I messaged her last night and essentially told her that I felt I had made a big mistake in agreeing to things yesterday.
So we sat down and talked...shorter and more relaxed than yesterday...and with no crying, family photos, etc. She ended up telling me that if I didnt want to hang out with her and whatnot I didnt have to, but that it was my choice to make and essentially not coming from her.
I'm kind of feeling like a guilt trip was being laid on me, or she was giving herself an anti-guilt trip by what she said. It was almost like she was saying if I chose not to take advantaqge of the opportunity she was offering me, it would be my fault and not hers that things didnt work out.
Perhaps I'm misreading that and she was simply being mature and honest.
At that point I told her I didnt realy know what I wanted...so she offered the idea that if I didnt want to hang out this week but changed my mind next week, I know her number.
I dont know if I ever gave her an definitive answer to that or not.
We ended up going to breakfast together, and talked about the gym I'm a member of having an open house day where people can come for free. She thinks she would like to go to the gym with me that day...just to check it out.
While either or both of those I saw as fitting into her specific love language of "quality time" (from Chapmans "5 love languages"), now that I look at what I've typed, I cant help but wonder if maybe she's looking to join the gym to get in shape for the OM.
