The comments were during a scream-fest yesterday, which I don't quite have the time/energy to post to my thread yet.
The reason that I think my attitude/behaviour is working is b/c for the last 4.5 months, I've gotten total, complete indifference from H.
I believe he says 'cold' b/c I'm not crying, begging, pleading, fawning over him. Just being [mostly] content, confident that either way, I am FINE. Fine now, and most likely even more fine in the future.
'Delusional' b/c he says I'm not dealing w/D. H. hasn't filed for D; H hasn't seen lawyer. H claims to not have ability to find lawyer. I am pretty sure that my M is not going to survive at this point. I am rectified to this and to be absolutely OK with life w/o H. H seems to think that my being functional and not a basket case means I am in denial.
'Crazy' - don't know. H. alludes to me "doing something crazy" - will not get more specific than that. Best guess is this is in regard to OW. Do not know where this comes from; I'm not a violent/vindictive/vengeful person.
I don't know if my explanation is making sense?
I think H. is freaking b/c he sees that the dynamic is shifting, and he no longer has complete control over sitch. That's the feeling I'm getting.
Edit: also, for the last 2 weeks since I've been back in the house, interactions w/H have been pleasant, calm. H. has been doing little things like running errands for me, making coffee for me, initiating conversation, etc.
Last edited by Ruined; 01/24/1009:36 PM.
M & H: 40 M: 5.5 T: 7.5 OW: 7/09 Bomb: 9/09 Sep: 3/10 H files 7/10
