Well the talk was unfruitful as I expected. But oh well.
Anyhow since then, I've been continuing to go out and work on myself. I've been going out with friends and when I do have the kids, I make sure they alot of things to do that my W doesn't do with them.
Last week was my sister's wedding. I invited my W to come and she did. We posed for family pictures. I'm sure she felt awkward, but oh well not my problem. There was a time during the speeches that one of the bridesmaids wrote about having honesty in the M and how you need it to have trust in the R. I wondered if any of that penetrated to my W in our sitch. Anyhow, during the wedding we carried on like nothing was wrong, she was back to her old self and no one knew we were S.
Yesterday a friend of mine had a get together at her place with some couples and their kids. Since it wasn't my day with the kids, I asked my W if she would like to go. She said okay and we all went to my friend's house. Again, she acted like nothing was wrong and had a good time. She kept to herself at times, preferring to play with the kids rather than with the adults. There were a few times when my friend, the host, would invite her to come back out and join us. I think she was probably tired from working during the day, but again, not my concern.
I dropped them back off at her sister's place and my kids started to cry when I left.
And that leads us up to today. I'm picking up the kids in a few minutes to spend the next 3 days with them. Can't wait.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
