One more thing that you mentioned that I kind of felt compelled to address was what I was doing on the computer when I was completely missing my SO's desire for love and acknowledgement.
It wasnt porn, although I can see why you might assume that given that many guys do get heavily into that and even develop an addiction. I was actually on the computer playing games.
While that isnt much better, I would never look at that kind of stuff when she was home...and when I did it wasnt much and it certainly wasnt on the computer.
It's kind of funny in a sad way...that since my SO left I havent played one game on the computer.
If she and I do ever reconcile and/or get back together, I may get rid of the computer alltogether.
Given what it would mean had happened...I would welcome the day I dump this thing in the garbage.
