Mixed Signals or is this Limbo Land

[MHL]

Okay, recon report from GAL activities last night.

It is ugly out there men, just horrific, the horror of it all......actually the scenery was quite nice but still a little depressing seeing all the 30 - 55+ crowd (men and women)acting in desparation but I still had a lot of fun. Still very rusty in the pick up lines but the one that really worked believe it or not was "Do you go to my church". That always got a reaction, and the only reason I used it is because there were some women there from my church!!!

I walked in the door and immediately someone I new from the neighborhood (divorced) called out my name from across the bar and came and gave me a hug. That felt good that someone knew me right away, she was not part of the group I was meeting. Saw 2 more people I knew, again not part of the group I was with so I did not feel so out of place. But the first has been in contact wiht my W and this person told me she wants to tell my W that the grass is not so green after D. Couldn't believe it, she is a WAW also. I know it will get back to my W that I was out, not that I care but just so she knows I am moving on.

The rest of the night was fun, talked to a lot of people but my heart was not in it, maybe with time I don't know. Also, this place is a total "meat market" night club scene, which I have never been really good at. I am sure I will go again but I do not have to return anytime soon.

Went to church this morning and I it is absolutely my favorite part of my week. I do feel the love of people that care about me and my family and will pray for us. Lunch out with Sunday School Class after then home. Watching playoffs in a bit with friends. More good GAL.

Just a little bit ago, my W called from work. She works part time at dept store at mall, I did not even know she had to work today. I figured she was out last night doing whatever and had no obligations today, I even pondered that she might have has an out of town trip planned. I answered after I saw the call was from the dept store. W said hi in a very sullen voice. I gave her a cheerful "hey, how's it going?" She said she has had a very bad morning, as been down, she is missing the kids terribly.
This is the first time she has said this in 5 months. She wanted to talk to them if she could, I told her S9 is right here and handed phone to him, they talked breifly for about a minute and then hang up.

Could this be a crack in the armour? Don't know, just writing it down and moving on. Possibly moving into the Depression Stage of MLC?? Sticking with the program, do not initate contact, be friendly when talking about kid exchange, continue GAL activities. I hate to put it like this but it is kinda fun, I am feeling great and she sounds miserable. Hmmmmm....I recognize this but the roles were reversed???

Go Vikings!!!