We talked some more last night.
H told me he's very unhappy. He wants to find happiness - he hates his life, hates the person he is, hates the fact he has no financial security, etc. He even shared the fact that he's thought about ending his life (it's not the first time he's said this). He said he's not worthy of me and that he carries a lot of guilt about that. He told me I should find someone who is worthy of me. I told him that he really needs to get IC and that if he doesn't want to do it for himself then to do it for S13. He pointed out that he's gone to IC before and it was useless (he went to MC twice about 10 years ago and then 3 IC sessions after the PA). He has acknowledged beforehand that he's depressed, has deep rooted issues and realizes he needs to get C.
He keeps changing his mind about what he wants and keeps saying we're not right for each other. Could he be going back into the tunnel?


Me47
H46
S13
M16
Piecing since May/09

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