Praying for Light at the end of the Tunnel

[kjensen]

Since Cyrena had such a great explanation for me I went back to read some of her history/posts..It seems she and her H found a counselor that understood MLC and the teenage/mature brain dichotomy..not sure where she lives or how she found the counselor but that is hopeful.

The DB counselors I spoke on the phone with defnitely understood it. My opinion is that there is a unique set of criteria that a MLCer meets that could define it as a unique 'disease'/diagnoses, but that it is easily (mis)diagnosed as other things(depresion, addiction...)

I think if we took baseline hormone levels on people before, during and after MLC there would be some changes. Same with neurotransmitters(seratonin, norepinephrine..etc).but who is going to do that for a study or pay for that..who is going to identify the MLCer before they have a MLC?...Best we have info- wise is what we have.

Got a text eary this am from H trying to understand/explain what I had talked about yesterday in regard to our lawyers..I responded and shared how much it would cost me to do something my lawyer suggested..He misunderstood and said he was sorry that he'd tried to take me into consideration..then later said "we should look out for ourselves and not each other.Old Habit."

The spinning and reframing everything I do/say negatively continues. I should know better than to respond.

I'm not sure how we'll get through doing our taxes together..much less this divorce. Its hard to do any communicating when you know it will be twisted. I do think it unsettles me and makes me a worse communicator than usual because I'm always 'speaking on eggshells".. I guess we'll see.

Am reading "Rebuilding by Dr. Bruce Fisher" to become whole again, fill in my gaps...Trying to move forward.